Now what .. ?

The company I work for is going to shit. I'm not sure how much longer I'll have a job there. Every week seems as though they take away another benefit. What the fuck. How am I suppose to get by anywhere else? That's like all I know. I've worked there for 4 friggin' years. The guys I work with are part of my life now. In fact, I've worked so long with all guys, I don't even know if I can work with a woman. Who the hell would want to?? Not I. I'm so scared to apply anywhere else, but it's my only option. My job kicks ass - I can smoke inside the building - swear - leave when I want - wear what I want - trust my co workers - and I'm a pro at what I do. I know so much about freakin' glass it's wrong. Ask me anything --- I dare ya. It's like all I know though, which is why I'm having a problem seeking another job. It's all fucked up. I'll be alright ... I always am.
I'm finally seeing results from working out almost every day at the gym. I'm really excited. I think I'm hooked. On the weekends, I usually don't go ... I feel like shit -- that's a sign that I'm hooked. I love it though, I feel so good about myself, and now I am looking better. All for the low, low price of 22 bucks a month, can't beat that shit. I'd really like to look like a swimsuit model, but that's a goal beyond MY reach. Maybe not -- but I'll stick with the small goals I have now, maybe with time.
I'm wicked excited about this weekend & next weekend -- I'm actually gonna be partying. Fuckin' right. Lately my weekends have been SUPER low key. It's cool though, I spent a lot of "me" time thinkin' shit over & over & over in my head. Quality time spent going insane. Makes sense. Right?
I'm out.